what i want to do in the future

i really dunno what i want to do with my life. i know i don't want to do mechanical engineering or architecture or anything that has to do with physics. i want to do medicine but it's very sad and demoralising being in rjc becos everyone else is doing better than me and all will get into medicine first while i become the corpse for yu to dissect and find out that actually i am a man. and i haf blue blood and 6 extra nipples formed into the shape of iraq. OKAY RUBBISH. aiyah.


my biggest dream is to marry a rich man and be a tai tai but that is so impractical cos being a tai tai is fun for a while but can yu imagine shopping for 10 YEARS IN A ROW. and getting manicures and pedicures. basically just lying around and getting people to service you and once in a while when yu're happy sit in a sedan for fun. shenjingbing lah. i will DIE cos it'll be so boring the only change will be the change in my clothes -.- and how can yu ever depend on someone else in this world. there's only urself to look out for. aiyah selfish la selfish. so of course second best will be to earn alot alot alot of money and use the money to do the above mentioned things that you do when you're a tai tai.


BUT. what is the point of earning alot of money when you are doing something you don't like? and even though 18 is somewhat 1/5 of life gone, i really dunno what i like. as in yes i like music and theatre. but hello how can yu earn money out of them. but would i be very happy working in media even though my pay is only enough for me to buy gardenia bread and gardenia bread alone everyday? i guess i would. but how to survive! okay lah i dun really know the scene. but of course we are all practical pple. and the only way to go is to be a doctor. becos that's what television says. that's what your auntie says and that's what your parents say. okay that's not what my parents say. i think my dad knows me quite well. he knows i like working w pple and speaking and blah blah. BUT HOW TO EARN A LIVING TALKING.


actually i think i would be happy doing anything as long as i am earning enough to lead a comfortable life. read: not luxurious but comfortable. comfortable meaning non-worrying. as liching said 'i dunno what i'm interested in, but i would be interested in anything that helps me earn money'





actually i want to do something that requires interacting with people. if not, animals. i want to be a zookeeper but the only zoo in singapore is the mandai zoo and the zookeepers are indians who all day long carry children to sit on the elephants. and elephant shit is no joke. you think your shit is big? compare your size to the elephant. look at it's shit. NO JOKE AH. i rmb in p4 we went for a few days camp to the zoo and this elephant was peeing while standing up and we were supposed to go to it. and i thought that they had just washed the place. like seriously. yuck.




aiyah. it doesn't matter what i do. i just want to be worry free. which is unattainable. it's time to read more. i'm too shut up in my space.








on a lighter note. char came my house today and as usual it was shit. hahah as in. we really do shit lah. AIYAH NO NEED TO BLOG LAH BECOS THIS KIND OF THING CAN PREDICT ONE. hahha i realise i dun blog about what i do or what's happening to me or who i went out with or what happened in school cos it's so predictable and the pple who read this blog are from school so ANYWAY. okay. God bless everybody. we've been getting shit lately. seem to haf a knack for having screwed r/s. but ah. we are only 18. i love yu gabbag let's continue growing up together!








on another note. PLAY 06 is next thursday and friday 9th and 10th march. tickets at $4 and we'll be playing pieces. i wanted to say 'pieces like' and put songs but i realise hmm it's not really 'pieces like' but all the genres. so anyway. just come! it's inexpensive and got aircon. haha. no lah. but yeap!




天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁 也许事与愿违
累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背 有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁


或许颓废也是另一种美




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